..........I know I've not updated for quite a very long time now~ mian...('sorry' in korean, btw)
No, wait...why am I saying sorry for? It's not like I have an avid follower of my humble blog. But even if there is even just one person out there who occasional clicks on my URL whenever he/she feels bored, I thank you very much~ (^_^)v. But I honestly suggest that you quit soon; hehehe~ really, this blog seems quite useless. It shows barely anything. I know I've never really been the blogger kind of girl, but I thought at least here I could pour my heart out and just type incessantly of things that can never really be verbally spoken. Truth is, it's even hard to just switch on the laptop and log in to blogspot and type whatever it is that I need to let out. Quite frankly, whenever I feel like blogging, I'll find myself talking all alone in front of the monitor and feels that "well, that's that!" and hence, I feel like I no longer need to express myself by typing it out.
My days are pretty much the same EVERYDAY! I've been repaying my fasts lately and I guess that has highly helped me staying off the kitchen doors...yes...door'S' because I have more than one kitchen which are I think equally resembles a forbidden area nowadays...don't want to elaborate more on that. Everyday is the same thing. It almost feels like a routine, but then everyday, I dont really do the same activities...or do I???~~ what surprises me most everyday is of how time passes so quickly. I think this year has been the shortest year and I hae never imagined a year could fly by very quickly. With the blink of an eye, it's already June. Next, it'll be July, then August, then September, October, November....December...then Januaryy...then February.....well..yeah~ you know where I'm heading - in a circle. But the thing is, even though I admit as much as this year has been awfully spent carelessly, I have been never been hollower. I do feel like a lone loser once in a while...my self esteem has also been out the windows lately, due to my halt in the physical activities, but I feel hollow. Not sad, not happy...just hollow. I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing, but I just feel carefree!
But not wholly carefree though...I still have this main concern of going to Uni. next year...pft! All the horror, the questions of where and when...the How~ fuuhh~ It's exhausting my brain! And I really hate it when my serene feeling gets trampled on nowadays! Seriously, you poke a sleeping lioness you're going to get a beast!
Nonetheless, I also realised that my English has gotten rather down the slump. I mean, yes I still do have the very basic skill, but not the..umm....well...hmm..I can't really say but there is definitely something missing. When I have to forward a movie just so I could read the subtitles or pause a scene so that I could read the english subtitles...then I'll just know that there is something wrong with me. If I had to CAREFULLY read something in English and not be able to decipher it in one glance, then there is definitely something wrong with me. Well that is the least of my concern. I'm going to Uni. soon, and I'm supposedly taking courses that are 'english related' and those that expects me to write beautifully and those that expects me to read...well, how can I?? 1- I've seem to lose my essential touches! and 2- I seem to lose interest in reading! Even a love novel wouldn't entice me...Twilight to say the least~
Oh well...I think I should go back to my life. Of course, I'm not going to mention to you what is it that comprise my daily activities because as enjoyable as it is, I am rather embarassed of it :P But anyho, I'm off to MY ROCKIN' WORLD!!!!!!
NFH has lit up your life again at 1:06 AM
