MY ART WORK

So I've been really interested in drawing, sketching and taking pictures lately. I admit I've lost the skillzzz but yeah~ I'd share my artworks here, but the internet is being really lousy tonight. So I'll just post them up when internet is not being so slow.

SO! I've decided, I want a DSLR camera. I know I shouldn't but I just want a really REALLY good camera for my advanced photography course. Although they say the type of camera doesn't matter... let's face it.. you know it does >:\ so I'm getting (soon hopefully) a DSLR!

Therefore a blackberry is now DEFINITELY not in my list since I don't want another funky gadget after my tablet.

Okaayy~ this isn't working out. I'll blog more once the internet speeds up. This looks dry without all the pictures :(

Until next time~~~ toodleessss... *waves*

NFH has lit up your life again at 5:15 AM

TAG: 20 RANDOM QUESTIONS

So I was rummaging through my blog and saw a tag message. I guess maybe the person no longer has his/her blog since the name was put to "unknown" anyways, its one of those question tags thingies. I was thinking that this could be fun since I always ignored these kind of things because I always thought that you should know a person personally and ask these questions in person, don't you think? :) aaannyyywaayyss~ enough rambling, I'll just get on with it :)

1.Things you cannot leave the house without
My handbag :) everything is in there anyways. And of course car keys.

2.Favorite brand of makeup
I love to try all kinds of brand and so far, I haven't got a favourite yet

3.Favorite Flowers
Roses (red ones)

4.Favourite clothing stores
I never realised this, I used to have alot of ESPRIT. Although now I just wear whatever I want ;)

5.Favourite perfume
Calvin Klein's "Eternity"

6.Heels or flats
Usually heels (since I love to look taller than my 161cm height ;p) but these days, I kinda love those practical flats more.

7.Do you make good grades?
My efforts usually mirror the grades ;)

8.Favourite colors
Black and red! But then again, I love all colours!

9.Do you drink energy drinks?
Nope

10.Do you drink juice?
Not really. Not so fond of the somewhat sour taste

11.Do you like swimming?
I can't swim :(

12.Do you eat fries with a fork?
Depends, but usually, yeah~

13.Whats your favourite moisturizer?
Olay anti-aging moisturiser

14.Do you want to get married later on in life?
Yes

15.Do you get mad easily?
Yes, But I get cool easily too 0:)

16.Are you into ghost hunting?
NEVER!

17.Any phobias?
Heights

18.Do you bite your nails?
nope.

19.Have you ever had a near death experience?
I'm not sure... If there was, I would've remembered it, so Thank God! none~

20.Do you drink coffee?
Yes, especially when I'm pulling an all nighter doing assignments. But usually I try to avoid coffee





NFH has lit up your life again at 4:46 AM

COMEBACK!!!

My oh my... This blog has been left for too long. Anyhooss~ since its that time of the year again, the..DECEMBER HOLIDAAAYYY!! I've decided to relive this blog once more :)

My last post was in 2009 which is like 2 whole years ago and ALOT has happened! will share things starting now. Ok then. see you real soon with real updates! 0:)

NFH has lit up your life again at 4:40 AM


Michelle Phan~ ^_^

When I go on YOUTUBE, one of the must see videos is those done by Michelle Phan. She's gorgeous! And she does make up tutorials. I don't usually get to follow one, cuz I think they're pretty inapplicable and plus they're also too thick :P Regardless of that, it's still fun to watch!

What's better is she's not one of those amateur make up instructors that you usually see on YOUTUBE where they record their videos in their living rooms or their rooms or so on. I mean, sure Michelle Phan does hers in her room and living room as well, but her videos look more professional and has better quality? hehe..I mean, really, inda cemeh bah usulnya :P here's her latest one. I also put a link to her YouTube Channel (http://www.youtube.com/user/MichellePhan) , just in case you'd like to check her out. Enjoy the video!



Oh!! And before I forgot! My cousin Qidah/Mimi showed me this video yesterday! I think it'll be self explanatory XP~~ He actually made A LOT but then again I decided to just show you one cuz I neeeddd to get back to my assignments! Classes restart TODAY!! It's 10:18 AM, and I still haven't even touched my assignment! Book not picked from the copier and here I am, clicking on all the wrong icons and typing on the wrong thing! AHAAAHHH~~ OK! I'm stopping~

BTW, I'll only give you the link to the video, as I can't embed his videos here~ so, yeah check him out when you have the chance or when you feel like it. SO WORTH IT XD



NFH has lit up your life again at 5:55 PM


MOVIE!!!

Watched two movies today with Ka Da and Ka Rin! We had a little marathon going on...not really a marathon though, more like just watching two movies in one day! haha! all in all it was a fun filled day! Woke up in the morning, had breakfast with the whole family and talked alot! This is why I love holiday mornings, cuz we get to get together in the morning and just talk and joke our hearts out! I love my big family! I love them and their flaws! Though...sometimes they can be annoyingly, painstakingly hard to please and they can hurt you the most cuz they're your family and they're the closest thing to you and you just can't bear to hurt and be hurt by them.

Anyways, back to what I was sayingg~~ I love my family and I had a fun day watching movies with my two out of 4 sisters! Watched "NIYANG RAPIK" at Seri Qlap in the morning then went to Bakerlyn for Ice cream after that. My ice cream was AWESOME!! XD went home, had lunch then off to Empire to watch "PERCY JACKSON AND THE LIGHTNING THIEF" Both movie were ok~ They're not bad and they're not "too good" either. They are "good" though~ here are the trailers. Maybe you'd want a reference for your next movie outing.

"The best time spent, is the time spent with your loved ones!"



NFH has lit up your life again at 4:59 AM

UNPRECEDENTED PHASE

So like lately I've been feeling rather~~ not under appreciated...not turn back against...not shoved...not rejected...but there's just something there that I just can't put my finger in to.

I know most people say it's all because of the "transition to adulthood" where you just feel the sense of responsibility altogether being too fast without letting you to at least prepare for it before embarking on the whole journey. I'd like to think of it that way~ And I guess, IT IS that. All I know, is just I'm not sure. I seem to not know how to act like me and 'being me'. I can act nice and I can act quite cold. Sometimes I wonder, which is the REAL me? the nice one or the ice princess? Am I even being genuine when I'm being friendly and accepting people's bullshit? I have NO IDEA~

The love life has been rather lame as well nowadays~ I guess as you get older, you began to think of these stuff and sometimes I do hope to just settle down and at least have one serious relationship and no longer one of those flings stuff. Nothing is going as planned -_- I guess it's Karma? If it is, then I guess I should apologies to those people that I think I might have hurt...I know the chances of them reading is is VERY SLIM to NONE, but I would like to apologise to 'A', I think I should've listened to your explanation and your side of the story. Then there's 'B', I'm sorry for being a jerk when you said you liked me. I know it took lots of courage to do that and I regret saying all those things - I'm sorry. Then there's also 'A', and well...yeah, all I can say is just sorry. Then there's 'M'...Sorry, I can't feel the same way. God! This is just sad. Can't believe I'm doing this here. But seriously, I think it is Karma.

I'm still this girl who can't go to extreme to get the guy she likes. I always calculate, "is he worth this?", "will I get hurt?" and so on and so forth. I can't take risk, up till where I met 'H'. I have nooo idea why I became extremely stupid over him. And think of how many people told me he's not worthed, everything on me says he's well worth it! Then in the end, it didn't work out.

My point of it all is that, I seem to have weak judgment? But then, when I get off and odd vibes from people, it usually is correct. But when it comes to the matter of my heart, I build a huge dissonance!

Right now, I'm seeeeriously trying to like someone. So far, potential candidate - 0! I know I'm all crushing, finding lots of guys good looking who I call them my man candy. But truth be told, I can never love those guys and I need someone who I can unconditionally love. This song, I realised seems to reflect how I feel nowadays. It's actually by Robbie Williams, with a different music video BUT I chose this as it has Dennis Oh in it and hehehe~ you know how I just lovee showing off my man candy ;P







NFH has lit up your life again at 4:25 AM


When times get rough

Thank God, I still have this blog. I know I dont do much with it and heck, I even sometimes think, why do I even still have this? THIS is why. When things get awesomely good, I need more place to tell and if things get bad to worse, I can't say it and I let it out through here.

I've only tried to talk to one person about this, but heck, the pain is just still there. I have to put up with fake smiles and pretend everything is fine when I'm just slowly shattering on the inside! I HATE this feeling! I don't think I can ever just let out my feelings, 1- because I'm just embarrased if people see the weak side of me and 2- I always have this way of thinking that people have their own problem and why bug them with mine and that my problem is nothing much to compare to what they might be facing. I know it's fine to just simply say bits of your worries as regular conversation, but the thing is, if I tell you more of myself, you'll know more if me and that'll mean I trust and I don't easily trust nowadays. It's just so hard :( What's worse is I can't even talk to my sister about some stuff now. Or any other person for that matter. So I thought, if the person you can talk to is the person you can't talk to, then who could you talk to?

Things just keep piling up and I just want to thrust it away and let things shatter! When I thought I'd always have someone to turn to when problems just smiling their way to me, I just face them in fear of turning around thinking there might be no one there. Cuz really, so far, I fall without anyone catching me!

It's funny how you can boldly face some things then when it comes to certain issues, you just go weak and beatened! Sometimes things may appear unfair and I thought, hey, I have this..I have that...just to think that everyone has something that makes this world and life a lot more equal. But this time, it's just so hard to do that. I had promise my self that I should do as those tv slogans been saying, "new year, new you" I thought I had an improved new me, shoving EVERYTHING to the side and just concentrate more on what I have. In the end, I can't shove EVERYTHING, I'm this egoistic person, I give back twice the offense given to me, I keep more and more things to myself and ooh! guess what, I hold grudges now - awesomeee! So is this the new me?

NFH has lit up your life again at 11:24 PM